mcm kene jentik je hati, nik kata

HAHA, yesterday we had to timbang our berat. i guess it's really embarrassing to every girl, kan. well, i have to say, i'm very shocked. i'm not as heavy as i thought, thanks to kawad. nd aizat. haha, with him gone, i don't eat that much for dinner. like half a scoop of rice is eough. tak lalu nak makan, haha. i have tonnes of homework piling up, but i'll do it tonight, trust me. bukannya ada pape nak buat malam malam en, aizat tak msg en. tak da mood nak msg orng lain, bace je msg aizat yang lama lama smpai tertido. itu lah rutin saya setiap malam. sangat lah pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. i miss aizat, i miss aizat, i miss aizat, i miss him badly. i keep telling myself to be patient with all of this, nd i am. trying so badly. setiap kali balik schl, i walk alone. usually i'll ask aizat to teman me, then he insisted on belanja-ing me apple juice from 7E. because he knows i love apple juice, nd because he loves me. we won't say a word during the journey sometimes, there's just a comfortable silent between us. he always says that he wants me talk a lot, because he said that he'll miss me if he has to move away. so i talk, then he'll be beside me in complete silent, listening to me. if only he knows how i feel right now. i know i am stronger than this, at school i laugh i smile i study. but, things are different without him. i know i'm better than this, people say that you'll get used to it. but frnds of mine that says that to me, ended up breaking up wit her boyf because of their long distance relationship. so tell me, you guys broke up because you can't do long distance? right? you're not making me feel any better. his frnds at schl, teases me a lot, nd it annoys me sometimes. because they'll start shouting Aizat Aizat, then like DUHHH mesti ah aku sedih BODOH. haish. aizat kinda vandalised the school, haha. kat tangga tuh dia carve nama dia AIZAT MAULA nd he conthen the hand rail, nd setiap kali lau, mesti teringat kat aizat. lalu aje tempat dia carve tuh, sedih oh. blahh, smpai bila naa nak sedih?

*only aizat calls me naa, nd he managed to sound super sweet when he says that :)

I MISS YOU AIZAT MAULA :)