So hold me close and say three words like you used to

Dear, tell me whats going on in your life. I miss you so much. I've been messing up at school. I can't study with a clear head. Why am I like this? You've always helped me, guide me through my life. So please sayang, tell me what's wrong with you. I guess you've been acting kinda strange. I just want you to tell me whats wrong with you. That hard ke sayang? Or is it me yang ta betul? I mean, I've been kinda off lately. Only in class. But I'm okay all the way with you. That doesn't make sense. But just try to fahamkan. We've been together for like more than a year, and that is one hell of a good thing. I am trying so hard to make this work. My frnds know how much I love you. You've took care of me, cared about me. Thats what I love about you. Sayang, you're just like the ultimate super duper boyfrnd. And who am I? Just a normal girl. A blank girl. I guess you've helped me more than I helped you. Your good deeds to me, are just uncountable. I'm not like the other girls, and you said that you loved me for who I truly am. But, who am I? What have I done to deserve someone like you? Sayang, have you ever thought that someone else deserves you better? I'm not giving up on you. On us. I have never given up on you. I'll never give up. I just can't help but to feel like I don't deserve you. I miss you, I miss having you beside me. Grrr. Emosi sungguh.