empty

i am so hating this. i know i should learn to let go off them. but i fear that they will forget me, nd what we used to have. i love you somehow just doesn't satisfy me. i know. they are better off in sbp nd mrsm. but, i am not ready to let them go. i guess it's normal, mula mula mmg sedih. but lama lama nati mesti okay. that's what i am scared of. i don't want to ever forget you guys. who knows, what happens if i get hit by a car nd lost my memory? yah, dramatic sikit. i'm just saying. i hope that when you guys come back to BTHO we can do the reunion stuff. but i guess i can't wait that long. i'm not good with patience. har har.

nd on 10 Feb the teknik thangg is coming out. nd more people are going to leave the school. nd that sucks. a lot. i guess we can jumpa them time cuti, but it's not the same. at school we see them everyday smpai naik muak :) tapi, bila diaorng nak pegi, then you realize that it's sad. it's really a smack on the face, when you go into class on selasa nati. then it's empty. the seats that was filled with boys laughing, jerking, teasing nd STUDYING are now empty. disorong bawah meja. empty. i can't believe this year ade laki comel dlam kelas aku, tapi dia pegi MRSM! cibai aje. haha.

so now, it's just me and you inez. just the two of us. naim gone. not forever lah. but it sucks. i thought (da berangan da) after SPM nati, dpat join the schl activities nd naim would join us. but damn! naim kat kepala batas. siot aje. i can't imagine class without naim. it's just bizzare. he's been there for me when i needed help on my homeworks. on dloading songs. naim inez you are my only one. honest.

the hardest thing is going to the canteen in the morning, and fatyn won't be there.usually if fatyn tak dtng schl ngn yan, i'll ask yan "mane fatyn?" yan slalu jawab "dia pegi ngn mak dia kot" tapi skrng pagi pagi fatyn takda. rindu siall! grrr, nati time add maths, kepala fatyn da tak mengganggu papan hitam. ahhhh. hahaha. bodo gila aku ni.