in dying need for a month holiday

yes, i have not been myself lately. i've been talkative in class. somehow my civic teacher keeps checking up on me nd my frnds. OH PLEASE. cikgu, sivik ni time untuk relax lah! apehal nak serious sangat mengajar, haha. ye ah, makin lama makin kasar bahasa kau eh Diana. so what? haha. tak de lah. i seriously feel like i have this weight on my shoulders. i hate it alot. i feel like i did something wrong (memang pun) tapi mcm eurghhhh. rasa nak jerit aje. i don't know. just something that someone said. haunts me man. i thought by returning to the real me, i could change this thought of mine, but i can't. ah bodo la kau Diana. 1001 things are bugging me, it's just that i don't know which one is really the problematic problem. haha. i thought by writing a blog entry, kurang sikt beban. tapi, sama aje :l oh yes. i am confused. happy that you're here. sad that i envy things happening to you. pissed off because of your words. confused by your feelings. oh PMS-ing. moody. haha. but still, without this PMS, i'm still confused. seriously. masalah satu satu. but bukan nak selesaikan masalh. sial aje en, haha. oh yes, i miss you lah. i guess by denying it i could forget about it. alahai Aliza Diana, gila betol minah ni.

Sir Loga, saya tak faham Sir ajar apa. kadang kadang saya malas nak faham, sebab Sir merepek taik kucing. tapi syukur Alhamdulillah kawan kawan saya ada bantu saya tau. klau tak, terpinga pinga saya nati. cikgu Che Azizah, teacher ajar laju, semput saya mengejar cikgu tau. i suffer from Asthma btw, haha. anyway, i think think think tingg, Sets ni susah kan Yan! haha, mengandungi 4 huruf aje S E T S. tapi mak aiii, nak terkencing aku buat. haha! i guess Beta teachers are okay. but you know, my frnds and i are like 'tkda budak baru masuk beta ke weh' haha. bosan ah laki takde. Gamma boys up sikit ke Beta tak boleh ke! haha, gila en. laki da hapus kau tahu kat kelas tuh. haihh. bosan ohh. tak best langsung. seriously weh. masuk la Beta tuh, laki tak smpai sepuluh. haha.

okay,this is crazy, aku tertiru Zafirah. but i don't keep my scribbles in a book. i keep it in this secret place. hoh, mmg luah perasan gila lah. haha, kan Yan. i plan to write alotof those things in any paper i can get my hands on, then tulis lah apa apa, haha. then when i have alot of them stacked in my little secret compartment, i'll read it back. nd think how many stupid mistakes i did. nd i plan to write these things in any free period is schl. or when the teacher is teaching nd i don't give a damn about kerohanian inteleh jasmani and those crap. i got sivik, i don't need to belajar it. haha! so far i only wrote 2, because i only started yesterday :) pray that no one finds my secret notes, because mapus saya nati tau x)